You told me you didn't want anyone to be hurt as you redirect your objectives and goals, but I was fearful that the first person to be hurt would be you. There is always a certain amount of pain that comes with drastic growth. Refusing to accept the pain will only create more pain. I had a teacher once who told me that much of the pain I was experience was due to my not accepting the pain, I was always refusing to allow the pain to do it's work. Don't fight it. There's no way to avoid what you are feeling now and this is only the tip of the iceberg. The sooner you accept that pain is a natural symptom of growth, the sooner you will be able to accept it and the faster you will heal from it's powerful influence. I know that the words I send to you will not prevent the pain, but the awareness they bring will help to lessen the burden of your decisions.

Evaluate your beliefs relative to your values and life long objectives. You may find that some of them are not truly your own. They have been programmed into your mind by your parents, teachers, siblings, friends, and people who have had a powerful influence on you from childhood on. Realize that if any belief appears to be out of alignment with your values, you can choose to replace it with a new belief that will empower you to be who you really want to be. I don't think you will find much that is out of balance. I know you and love you because your beliefs and values are strong and balanced. You may feel the need to reprioritize your values as you decide what is most important to you.

I am glad I can be with you during your "rebirth". I feel like a proud parent, witnessing the joyous pains of a new life. We both knew that you would have to go through a troubled time as you move toward becoming a whole person full of life, love and happiness. I pray that good judgement and concise action will shorten the labor. I know you will not allow yourself to compromise what you believe in for the happiness of someone who doesn't have your total wellbeing as their major concern. Take refuge in knowing that you will never be alone. I will be there for you to lean on. If decide that moving on is the only way to survive, I will take you to my heart and hold you there until all your wounds are healed and we can move together toward fulfilling our dreams. "Take my hand and walk with me, by my side for eternity." Humm.. sounds like nice words for a great love song!

Until we see each other again, I will be with you…

Always,
Ton Ange